hmmm

alright. stop everything your doing now and just imagine this. your 16 this year and you just went to another country to study. you stay with relatives you dont really like and you go to such a crappy school.the church you attend you dont like as well. also you stay in a place that is absolutely horrendous and is boring. lucky for you, you only have to picture yourself doing this while for me its actually reality lol. ANYWAY. the time now is 3 hours ahead of singapore's time! which means if im online at midnight singapore time... its 3am here so you should probably chase me to bed haha. erm everythings the same. no change. still BAD haha but getting slightly better. 34 more days left. not even 5 weeks! but i have exams coming up. and i have to find a new school and accomodation. oh boy... alright tc all and for all those taking their o's study hard!! it'll be over before you know it.
laters people.

thank you, Lord.

Alright. So I came home today and uncle alan told me to check the letterbox. And i was like whatever for?!?!? anyway i did so and guess what!! i saw lucy's package!!! hahaa. man i was so delighted i think i almost blew up. i really didnt bother with what i got from lucy just that i was dying to read his note! haha. i guess miracles really do happen. the best part is i thought the mail people already lost it so i kinda forgot about it. and then POOF it became koko crunch haha. anyway, LUCIUS LEE WEI DE, IF YOUR READING THIS NOW... I LOVE YOU! hahaha even if you didnt send me anything i still love you as much. =). thanks for the fantabulous feet dvd.
[F.Y.I its not a dvd about feet. its a rollerblading movie] and thanks for the note also! haha. it was so sweet i think it would have dissolved in the rain! hahaha. well that really made my day i guess =). but then again its because of people like lucy and elroi and eliza and kim and ethel and amos that i really miss singapore. and my wonderful and awesome parents. the great food and the church too! haha. anw i could barely walk on thursday but im alot better now. and i can almsot play soccer again! i just hope i can play on saturday because its one of my sister's close friend's testimonial match. its alright if you dont get what i said. haha. ok. school... erm have alot of assignments and had a test today. it was bullcrap man. even the geek in the class said its bullcrap. so there better be a retest. other than that i have to look for a school PRONTO. and after that accomodation. so its either boarding or homestay. IF you wish to pray for me. my prayer requests are that i will be able to find a good school and hopefully they'll accept my application and that i will also have a place to live.
thanks alot people! and to all those taking their o's STUDY HARD! it'll be over soon! and then you can PARTY!!! my exams are coming in 7 weeks argh! haha. alright. tc people.

ps: ive been here for like a hundred days and im still in 1 piece. well kinda haha. 56 more days! see you all very soon! =)

my saying.

james- [75] says:
btw
james- [75] says:
i have a nice saying!
james- [75] says:
If you let something or someone stand between you and God. That someone or something is closer to God.
llw says:
haha
llw says:
nice one


okay people. when i die. i want to remembered for that saying. If you let something or someone stand between you and God, that someone or something is closer to God.

ps: pray that i will find a good school that is suitable and also accomodation =)
IM OUTTA HERE. tc .

=(

i just need to get home. 78 more days. oh boy.

sigh

"Home" by Michael Buble

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I gotta go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

im good. not really.

hello to all! im proud to announce that my sore throat has disappeared like the crocodile hunter! haha. btw i find him an idiot but whatever R.I.P. anw now all i have is a serious blocked nose but i'll be fine in a couple of days. my legs still hurt though. but hey im a soccer player haha. i have so much work this week la! advanced math assignment is due today but i havent done it and im doign it now and i'll do the rest tomorrow in school. and i have an english assignment due on wed AND a vce general math test on wed as well. and then on fri i have a formal. FYI (its like prom). I DO NOT HAVE A DATE. and its because i dont want one as i really cant be bothered haha. k i wanna sleep now. if homesickness doesnt kill me. it would be lucy getting married to someone else or tired-ness. kk BYE.

ps: i have 2 new good songs! haha
Neyo- Don't Worry Me Now
Avant- Can't Wait
ask me to send it to you if you want. havent uploaded yet. NIGHT PEOPLE =)

update

current status: dying to survive.
lol. my right shin is bruised and its an internal bruise i think. have a runny nose, a blocked nose and slight cough with a frickin annoying sore throat. just for the record i ate,took,consumed 2 tubes of blackcurrant flavoured soothers in approximately 2 hours, 35 mins, 27 seconds and 0.87 milli seconds. haha kidding. but i finished it in a day. i find it quite addictive somehow. anyway, theres this soccer team/club at my school which i just joined. and i finally get to play as a left mid/winger. im also allowed to play as a left-centre mid. the best thing is i dont get nervous and play like shit in a match anymore!! =)=). alright i dont have much to say. all the best to each and everyone of you that still have your prelims or are waiting for your prelims. you can do it! just think positive! im gone. see you all.

songs you must listen to (especially if you like R&B);
1) Gallery by Mario Vasquez
2) One Wish by Ray j
3) Differences by Ginuwine
4) Lie About Us by Avant
5) My Last Serenade by Joey Moe

ps: how hard can it be to find a nice, pretty, decent girl with strong christian faith? lol. then again i have Lucy already. =)

oh i remember

oh i remember. guess what thats the title of this post. haha kk in the previous post i mentioned i forgot about some stuff i wanted to blog about. well heres 1! im seriously injured. i got knee'ed in the right shin. and it wasn't gently. it was a full on impact thingy la. i also got kicked right in the ankle and someone knee'ed me in my thigh as well. OW. yes OW. its better now but i think ive got a bruised shin and somehow my toe hurts when i press it down. must have been that guy who stepped on it with his studs! but im still in one piece! no worries. 109 more days i can do this! haha. im also terribly sick now. not that bad la. but i had runny nose and then blocked nose and all the while i had sore throat for the past 2 weeks? and its still going lol. felt abit feverish the other day but im fine now. alright. see yous =)

one more thing: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! =)

not too bad.

things have really brightened up for me!! haha. i just reformatted my laptop and its so much better now but i dont have microsoft office or mcaffee antivirus and im getting alot of popups. HOWEVER my friend is lending me the microsoft office cd and i have norton antivirus and im currently downloading the pop up blockers =). ALL IS GOOD! if i didnt reformat my laptop, it'll still be screwed now!! so im a much happier person. now i just need to get the subsidy code for my phone and then i can finally use it!! hahaha. anw i had alot to blog about like 2 days ago but i forgot what i wanted to say already. so sorry ah. as i was saying i think my life is starting to get better la. like seriously. my dad finally found the adaptor for my pocket pc. i 'fixed' my laptop. i got a new phone and thats about it. haha. im also becoming known as the massive asian. which makes some of the people in school afraid of me. which is good. ive been getting alot of assignments!!! but i guess i can cope. and i got 100% for my VCE math test! WHEEEEEEE haha. (it was easy) (but still!! its an accomplishment!) alright ive got no more to blog about. so laters my HOMIES haha. =)

weird

haha ok this is gonna be weird and funny. anyway i slept really late on saturday night/sunday morning. like 3am. and then i really had to take a piss! so i got out of bed at like 430am. and i was super tired and groggy plus my already small enough eyes were barely opened. and then when i was tucking myself into bed again i was shivering. AND THEN i realised i was half naked la (not wearing any top)! haha. usually i wear a t shirt and a long sleeve t shirt and a jumper at home. but that day i wore a turtle neck as well. so i guess it was damn stuffy! haha. so funny anot? or just weird? hahha i find it rather amusing la! and i had no dream. kk other than that my week has been alright. it seems i might be able to do physics still! so i thank God once again. i really need a new bag and a new phone la. my bag is about to die any momeny and my phone can barely receive any reception! good news! my left "shift" key is working again! haha so happy =). now i just gotta do something to the mouse driver. anw i realise what i hate about winter:
1) the toilet seat is freezing cold.
2) my skin dries up real bad and cracks/chaps
3) so hard to wake up in the morning.
4) when you come out of the shower all you do is shiver.
5) my hands and feet are always cold.
6) sometimes its so cold its not funny.
then again i hate hot weather. and i prefer it to be extremely cold and not extremely burning and scorching hahaha. k thats enough. tc guys! love you all! =)

the oc

shit man. im gonna cry already the oc season 3 last episode was damn sad la. i wont ruin if for oyu guys but its a must watch. and there better be a season 4. anw i got no mood to talk. im really gonna cry haha. kk ive got so many assignments to do and i still need to study for my probability test which is stupid. of all things probability. how the heck will i benefit from that. sometimes school just isnt sensible haha. kk good news! in about 2.5 years. i'll be in RMIT doing Aviation! thats what i really want la. haha im gone. laters people!

ps: anyone know where to get the lyrics for the mighty to save album? i couldnt find.

still thankful

well i certainly wasnt feeling too good in the past week. for a moment or two, i just couldn't put up with all this. thou shall not elaborate. i really thank God for a friend like Lucy/Lucius. we've got so much in common but we are still quite different. without him church would be super boring la. Lucy if you're reading this, THANKS SO MUCH FOR HEARING ME OUT AND SENDING ME THE MIGHTY TO SAVE ALBUM! (if you havent heard any of the songs from the new hillsong album, you better!! its AWESOME!) (especially take it all, from the inside out and adonai!!) okay moving on.. i have so much work to do. but i just have no motivation and im currently not inspired to do anything. and just to make my head a lil bigger... I GOT 94% FOR MY BUSINESS TEST!! haha!! maybe i'll screw the pilot dream and become a con man or something.. then again i dont think i would. ok thats all i have to say.. so till then! tc and study hard everyone!!

ps: Please remove this laziness and replace it with dilligence and enthusiasm. Thank you Lord.

ARGH

sick of everything.
sick of school.
sick of putting up with so many people.
sick of the stupid churches i attend.
sick of just everything.
dont bother asking.
im just tired of all this.
i need a day off and a plane ticket to nowhere.

no good food

after i left sg i just cant seem to enjoy good food. lol.
1) theres no good food to be enjoyed 1st of all.
2) when i came back i had an ulcer.
3) when the ulcer went away, i got a sore throat.
4) just as my throat got more sore, i had a flu.
5) as i get better now, i have a swollened lip cause i bumped into someone while playing soccer.

as you can see, im already so pitiful and now no good food. haha. kk thats all. byebye

updated

ok lets see. so much has changed. i 'suddenly' HATE my guardians. HATE my cousins. HATE my school. HATE the church i attend. HATE where i am right now. oh. hold on. i always HATED them! so theres nth new. my bad. lol.. anwyay i really hate my school thats the most important. cause im here to study. bad choice though. bad bad bad choice. and then my guardians treat me like shit. seriously. shouldnt they be labelled ass*#&$% i leave it to your creativity to decide what that says. okok. if you guys havent already foudn out i miss singapore already! and its ONLY 149 days. oh man im gonna die young la. ok i dont have much to say now. so byebye.

ps: Dear Lord, please forgive me and remove this hatred-ness away from me even though it may seem impossible. I also pray that you will grant me extra self control, patience and discipline. Keep all my friends safe and bless them with dilligence. Please take extra care of my parents and tee! Amen. =)

plans

my current thoughts: shit la, school tomorrow.

my goal: be positive. if i was in singapore i would have to study my ass off. get white hair, sweat like a pig. and how bad can the school be? at least theres eye candy haha. not that st andrews doesnt have any HAHAHA. i also get to start over again, be the nerd i always wanted to be. get good grades and make my parents proud of me for once lol. even though i live with such undesirable people, its a good time for me to be independent and mature as well as grow spiritually!! =)

my response: siao ah! you think so easy is it? lol. k good night people. im damn tired already. 155 more days!!

singapore

MAN! singapore was damn good la. the 2 weeks really flew past. next time i will not suprise you guys cause i wasted 3 days doing that! haha. anw, i did eat quite alot! altogether i tihnk i ate roasted chicken rice twice, the white one twice as well, punggol or however you spell it nasi lemak like 4 times, my moms kway teoy, carrot cake/chai tao kway twice, chee kueh, the bbq'ed fish, YOSHINOYA lol, prata. and some others. cant remember, do you actually expect me to? haha. other than the food. i got to meet up with pretty much everyone. even though i didnt go out with ALOT of people and didnt see ALOT as well. i got to meet up with enough pple to make my smile a mile wide =). church was alright for the 2 weeks i was there. really miss FMC!! compared to the stupid churches i attend now. i also got to watch alot of movies!! like garfield 2 which was damn stupid, superman, shes the man, just my luck and i tihnk thats it. haha. orchard hasnt changed. other than the fact that the PpLEzx dAtzx ToRkzx LikeZX dIShz aRrZ sTarTingZX toO dOmiNatEzx WoRzx. you get my point.
oh ya i also got a million mosquito bites. and i was sweating most of the time when i was there.lol.
im also proud to announce that I DID NOT BUY ANYTHING! ZILCH/NIL/ZERO!! amazing right hahaha. but there was nothing that nice or worth buying also. but still. its an accomplishment! haha. ok im dead tired now so goooooooooooooooooo night to all you people! take care. and until my next post. LOVE YOU LONG TIME!

ps: thank you guys for making my stay in signapore so AWESOME! eg amos,lucy,elroi... actually all the church people. wait actually everyone la haha

and if you guys are free go watch hard gay on youtube! hahaha.

date of arrival

ok. if you havent already found out. im back in singapore. i landed on the 13th. todl you guys it was the 20th cause i wanted to suprise my church friends. =). it was great la. anw its good to be back. best feeling of the year probably haha! stayed over at amos' place last night and am at lucys now. i really do not want to go back!! alright. will update when i can be bothered.
ps: God, i thank for all the great friends youve provided me with! =)

one more thing: im sorry if im not meeting up with you. i dont have enough time this trip! so i'll see you at the end of the year or smth! see you guys around if i do! byebye

one more thing

ONE MORE THING. i saw this card with some sexist joke on it.
Q:How many men does it take to open a beer can?
A: None. It should be opened when she hands it to him.

haha. i find it quite funny. k im gone

needs and wants

ok. its confirmed. my buns of steel will kiss the ground of sg on 20th of june. at dont know what time. gosh i cant wait. so many things to be eaten. so many things to be bought. so many people to be met. so much to be said. so much love to be expressed. hahaha. so much to do when im back. 1st im gonna kiss this female that has spoonfed me all my life and for this guy who i really look up to. my mom and dad respectively. =). i sure hope theyre doing fine! =) anyhow. i really want to buy a new phone,mp4,psp and camera. but i gotta get my needs and wants sorted out. i really need a good camera. and i would like a mp4. but if i get a really good phone. it will have everything. just not a very good camera. but 2mgp is good enough for me. oh well. then agian theres psp which is so cool. been playing initial d on my friend's one in school. ok other than that. my exams are next week. i only have 4 papers and 1 practical exam. how cool is that. no matter what i must do well. 1) so i can change schools. 2) get on the path to being a pilot or engineer. haha. so i will be studying alot! =) ok. i gotta go to sleep now. am so tired and i kinda tore a muscle. okok. byebye! tty guys soon! many many love. =)

good weekend

i almost killed alan for the 2nd time. he turned off the internet without telling me for the second time. i cant believe im in this crap place attending a crap sch. im really wasting my time. anw. ytd i went to camberwell's jmyf. it was alright. and the message was prolly one of the best so far this year haha.
dont have much to say just that i really need to have an ewj soon. schs been the same. qutie alot of hmwk. and if you read tees blog she got some perfect score for chem right. man. i only got 82% for my marketing/business test hahha. TEE WHY! other than that i still wanna change sch. msot important factor now. and live somewhere nearer to civilisation haha. okok. ive uploaded some more songs and im listening to more rnb now. im finding the inner nigga in me =). so go download when youre free!! see ya. PEACE OUT MA HOMIES! hahaha
http://www.4shared.com/dir/366969/72c96d38/sharing.html

so sick of love songs

NE-YO LYRICS

So Sick


Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

ps: added this song on that web too.
[http://www.4shared.com/dir/366969/72c96d38/sharing.html]

gallery

"Gallery"

God broke the mould when he made this one I know
Shes breath-taking but so much more
She walks in the room, your lungs close
Making you never wanna breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrists froze
Is he faithful to her, hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me whats the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude
Has a whole wall of them just like you
And girl you just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind girl
Use you mind, dont be just another dime
Because

I cant take
Seeing you with him
Cause I know exactly what you be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And its tearing me apart
Youre just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his moneys hard to ignore
She really doesnt know what to do
Girl its just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After his done dulling your shine
You out the door and his through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me whats the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude
Has a whole wall of them just like you
And girl you just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind girl
Use you mind, dont be just another dime

I cant take
Seeing you with him
Cause I know exactly what you be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And its tearing me apart
Youre just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

Youre a masterpiece, I know that he
Cant appreciate your beauty
Dont let him cheapen you
He dont see you like I do
Beautiful not just for show
Its time that someone let you know...

I cant take
Seeing you with him
Cause I know exactly what you be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And its tearing me apart
Youre just another priceless work of art

I cant take
Seeing you with him
Cause I know exactly what you be
In his gallery
Just not fair
And its tearing me apart
Youre just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery



ps: such an awesome song.

new songs

YELLOW EVERYBODY! =). ive uploaded a few more songs onto that file sharing web of mine. so go and download them if you want! download gallery by the mario guy its a really nice song! ive been pretty much the same. alot more tired. havent been having enough sleep. but not to worry! alrighty then. im off!

ps: the web --> http://www.4shared.com/dir/366969/72c96d38/sharing.html

hello!!!!!

Bel: thanks belly! Hope youre doing fine!

Eliza: I know! Been studying hard? Tty soon!

Zach: hehe thanks. I would want extra chili too!

Kim: well. I dont think a fund is what I need. Its not enough! Haha.. tc!

Crystal: =). Must catch up with you soon!

Man. If I had a gun i'll shoot myself 1st. lol. 1st of. On sat, I was using the wireless and talking to a few gazillion people and then my very well liked uncle in law turn the frigging router off without even telling me. I was quite pissed at that but nth bad happened. And then on Sunday, this SPECIAL uncle of mine said no one could use the internet on Sunday. And I was wtheck. None of us did anything and he acted like such a frigging bastard. Now I was really starting to get ticked off man. For a moment or 2 I wanted to be a terrorist seriously. Anw. Other than that the churches I go to arent THAT bad. The one I attend on Friday night for youth group/fellowship is not that bad. Even though the people there are either a few years younger or quite abit older. But there are some that are around my age. Like theres this girl born in the same place as me! How cool is that. My age. But yr 11. there are a lot of foochows in that church and a lot of people born in either miri or sibu. (dont ask) and then theres the other church I attend on sun. that one is really crap to me man. The youth there have such bloody big heads. Like seriously. They think theyre super talented good looking and all that jazz lol. And I dont like the chi service. Cant go for eng service cause I would still have to go for the chi one or Sunday sch. Sunday sch is crap. Ages from 3- 16 I think. There are 2 other 16 year olds I think. But still. Its crap. Its SHIT to be honest. Im in such a hellhole practically. Anw. As I was saying the church I go to on Sunday DOESNT HAVE A FRIGGING YOUTH FELLOWSHIP. They do on sat but its more of a youth gathering thingy. On Sunday its service or Sunday sch. How gay is that. Do I look like im 6. im quite massive for an asian already! ARGH! Cant wait to get back to sg! Will probably go back in the 3rd week of june. But its not confirmed. Hopefully it is! About my academic progress. I did crap for my math sac. 70 %. I thought I would get 90+ . and trust me 70 isnt that good so I'll study harder. Been doing quite well in everything. Thats all for now!

Current fav songs:
jenny by the killers

All these things that ive done by the killers

Let it bleed by the used

Take it away by the used

Tyrant by the bravery.

Dreaming by scribe

Race against time by ja rule

Ps: I still love death cab!!! K. if you guys have any songs to let me listen to please email me or smth! And try downloading these 2 songs ( tiny vessels and this charming man by death cab) if you dont have them, cheers.

http://www.4shared.com/dir/366969/72c96d38/sharing.html

(its not a link so copy and paste it you lazybums! haha.)

sigh

sometimes i wonder what i should do. sometimes i just dont want to do anything. if only i could fly away. having no worries. but i guess i cant.

ive now been away from sg for about 3 months and 6 days. and the last time i saw my parents was about 2 months and 20 days. i really wish i could go back for a couple of minutes and say hi and then return. trying my utmost best to get some chicken rice or smth hahas. but again i guess i cant. dec is never gonna come at this rate. anw take care everyone.

random quote.

I'm not ASIAN, I'm MALAYSIAN! haha. random quote.

unchanged.

well. theres no change. i still wanna go back to singapore. i still miss singapore. i still hate this place. andy is still annoying. thomas is still babyish. uncle in law and aunt still cant drive for nuts. still dying. anyway hows everyone of you! im pretty sure youre loaded with work if you have a's or o's. and if youre waiting for poly all the best to you! right now. i really need laksa, chicken rice, nasi lemak , egg prata and yoshi! HAHA. man if only. okay. school's been alright. english is difficult man. and im loaded with homework!! now the weather is starting to get cooler! like 20 or so. cold in the morning . and then like sg weather but less humid in the afternoon. and at night it gets cold again. so its annoying in a way.

alot of you guys wonder what i do right. esp since i cant use the com on weekdays... i rollerblade a bit. watch simpsons. watch the oc i downloaded on my com. erm. some rollerblading clips. do my homework. and thats about it. not to mention think of HOME. and everyone in sg =). right now. i regret coming here. but if i stayed in sg i will probably be failing everything except physics. and i remember paul saying this to me like 2 years ago : the grass is always greener on the other side. until now. i find it damn true. studying in a more relaxing place is obviously more relaxing. but without the comfort of your family and bestest friends. and FOOCHOW METHODIST CHURCH! and food too. in any case. i still thank god for putting me here. although i wish i could go back now.

anyhow. thats about all i want to say. however everytime i listen to some songs i think of people in sg.
the songs:
Home by Michael Buble ->ELROI!
Somewhere out there by Our Lady Peace ->LUCY MY WIFE
She's A Lady by Tom Jones -> ETHEL! haha
Photograph by Nickelback AND Save Tonight by eagle eye cherry -> ELIZA (MY GF) haha
Letters to you by Finch -> AMOS
Voice of truth by Casting Crowns -> RYAN
and a few million more. but those are the songs i listen to most of the time.

ps: if youre a guy and wanna pick up aggressive skating i'd reckon you go for it! hahah. see you all! and happy easter.

things may get better

hello everyone!! how were your holidays? i knew it didnt feel like a holiday.... so too bad. haha. its now my last week of my 2 week break. before i go back to sch for like 12 weeks of sch... and in june i only have a 2week break or smthng similar. so dont complain... anw 2 weeks means i have less chance of going back if you realise... so just pray that i get my tickets! haha.. other than that so far all i have been doing is.... erm.. trying to complete need for speed most wanted!
for the guys who play: i have a supra,gallardo,rx-7,impreza,cayman s, murcielago (however you spell it), dodge viper, aston martin db9 and a corvette! haha. nice right, i know been playing quite alot... and im now waiting to get enough bounty to challenge the blacklist #2.
okay, other than that ive been playing abit of gunbound too! hahaha.. i always found it fun so i cant help it. put that aside... guess what i finally bought!!! MY ROLLERBLADES!!
(http://baysideblades.com.au/inline_skates_dt/inline_skates/salomon/salomon_brandon_campbell2.htm)
go check it out!! so as you can see my life got better... however both my guardians still drive the same. and both my cousins are still big fat babies. haha. but its not as bad as before...

as for church... i go to my other aunt's church youth group on fri night and then my guardian's church on sunday.. and my aunt jane's (guardian) church has alot of events where you go there and eat dinner. for instance there was one on tues... where it was some welcoming the new pastor dinner. so we ate dinner and had to wait about 3 hours before we were able to go home because uncle alan had some meeting... HOWEVER, i called my mom that day and aunt jane wanted to talk to her. so i told my mom to tell her not to treat me like her son because i HAVE a life and her sons dont really have one.. so i dont need to go for any church events NOW!!! hahaha.. btw, you guys should know im happening right!! haha.. thats about it for now... schs gonna start already! ARGH! i hate sch. for those of you that dont know why... i havent really made a very close group of friends.. just got some good ones.. but im happy with them so its ok.

ps: if you dont see me online when sch starts EMAIL me! =). tty all of you guys again! tc and eatwell and get maxlifed.

yours sincerely,
James

dying

so im still alive and able to post this... anyway im still gonna die soon but it may take a lil longer haahahas.. its either andy seems to be less annoying or im quite used to it already! hahas.. life here is really boring.. all you do is laze around and grow fat.. i hardly ever go out and theres no where near to go out!! both my guardians run their own business so they are working mon-sat.. which means i only get to go out on sunday after church. BUT they go to a place called boxhill... boxhill is like a mini china,korea and there are alot of other asians like indos and thais and all the mega loudspeaker asians.... besides that, church also sucks.. ive attended 2 chi churches in 2 weeks. wtpangsai.. so boring. i dont understand anything. extremely small. and theres like nth much going on...

my uncle in law came back from a business trip last thurs and guess what. hes so hilarious. hes so funny that for every single joke he cracks, he'll laugh his head off and no one will laugh. so you get my point? he laughs at his own jokes really bad. and i only do it when im insane. he does it every day!! ARGH! lol. hes also a control freak like my aunt. thats why their kids have became what they are today. ESPECIALLY ANDY. i will beat him up very soon already! hahas.. thats about it for now. quite lazy to type and theres nth much to say. just that i cant wait to see tee again and go to the city!!

ps: have you ever been in a car where the driver steps on the accelerator, releases it and then steps on it again? its like going back and forth! (chicken's head)... thats exactly what happens FOR EVERY FRIGGIN CAR RIDE!!! its not just my aunt. its both my aunt and uncle in law. but my aunt is alot worse. k see you guys!

life in aus

So now, school has started for me. It was alot better than I thought it would be actually. In my mind, I expected it to be like the movies---> you'll have to deal with the group that will make fun of you and you'll probably only have like 2 people talking to you trying to know you better. However, not a single soul criticised me and there were quite alot of friendly people in my school. In my school, I've only seen like 4 asians. The 1st one i met is from Beijing and everyone calls him Mal. Other than him, I don't really know the other Asians. Anyway my school is called Kambrya College. NONE OF YOU WILL KNOW IT. Trust me. Its a government school and its rather new i think. Right now, I'm staying at my aunt's place which is at Berwick. (pronounced as: Berick. the W is silenced) hahas. Its really far away from the CBD ( central business district) which is the city area. If i'm not mistaken, its an hour plus away from Berwick by train. So i don't have a life and I cant really go out. Because the nearest mall is about 20mins away or so by CAR. Which means that I'll be staying at home alot and I won't go shopping. Probably once in 2 months. Hahas. If you think that sucks, the horror continues. Now I'll tell you about my wonderful, happening and FUN cousins. 1st, my cousins are called Andy and Thomas. Andy is a year younger than me and Thomas is 12 this year. Now let me describe how mature they are in as many words as I can: They are babies. Seriously I'm going to die living with them. In the past 3 or more weeks I've been here, they have ONLY fought and cried 3 or 4 times because of the game Maple Story. Told you they are MATURE and ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL. Now, I shall tell you more about them individually. Let's start off with Andy. Andy looks like a mouse 1stly
(not criticising, just stating). He's twice as gay as Elroi ( sorry about this Elroi) and more than thrice as annoying as Elroi ( really sorry Elroi). From what I've seen and heard, I'm sure i can say alot of people find Elroi VERY ANNOYING. Well, at times he is. Compared to Andy, Elroi is mute. (which means Elroi is not irritating at all). Besides, Elroi can be serious. Andy is hopeless. But wait, there's more. Not only does Andy look like a mouse. He also squeals like one when I beat him because I get too annoyed by him. Everytime he squeals, my aunt (his mom) thinks I'm bullying him. WHAT THE MAXLIFE MAN. hahas. Unfortunately it doesn't stop here. Andy really doesn't seem to be interested in girls. (definition of girls: opposite sex of guys). The weird thing is, Andy gets pretty dirty minded sometimes. Let's not go there. hahas. Now, lets talk about Thomas. Thomas is a REAL BABY. He whines and squeals like a 3 year old toddler. No bullcrap. However, Thomas is (unbelieveably) more mature than Andy most of the time. In fact, I prefer talking to Thomas also. I ALWAYS ask him how he has survived with Andy for 12 years and counting. His reply: (I'll rephrase it) I have no idea. Andy is fierce with me and a real ass with everyone else. Oh well. Told you they are WONDERFUL. hahas. Other than ALL OF THAT, there's still more!! From the past weeks I've been living with them, I can assume that Andy and Thomas don't go out with anyone else other than family. Why? BECAUSE THEY STAYED HOME PRACTICALLY EVERY SINGLE DAY OF THEIR HOLIDAY!!!!! WHAT THE PANG SAI MAN. If you're wondering how they survived, I'm still trying to figure that out myself. From what I' ve come to realize, they are both SUPER DEPENDENT ON THEIR PARENTS. In fact, going out with their friends would be the last thing on their minds!! For EVERYTHING THERE IS IN THE WORLD, the both of them would go : " Maa, why this and why that and ask a billion other questions." Its not just for a few minutes or anhything similar, it actually goes on for like the whole day! If you feel that the story and explanation of James' life has motivated or touched you, call 1900-Help-A-Dying-James-Fund now. ( charges are as such : $0.12 per minute. Inclusive of gst. Be among the 1st 200 Gazillion callers and receive a Maxlife Voucher redeemable at all leading departmental stores. Limited time only. Terms and conditions apply) Anyway... I will be going online alot less from now on. I will also not be able to use the computer from Mon- Thurs. Which means I will hardly ever update like what I'm already doing now. Hee hee. Apart from all of these, my parents left this morning and I'm really going to miss them to the ends of Pluto. Currently, I'm attendind a 102% Chinese speaking church. HOW AWESOME. ( sarcasm x10) haha. I don't understand 90% of everything so its really boring for me. Hopefully I'll be able to go to Tee's church ASAP. Before I go, I must also mention that there are very few soccer players in my new school and ALMOST EVERYONE USES THE F-WORD LIKE TOILET PAPER. Fortunately, with self-control and obedience I promised myself and God I wouldn't use such language. (AMEN.) For now, have fun with whatever you're doing. Take care and Bye!

in aus

HELLO EVERYONE! this is only a quick and mini update.... I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS BACK AT FMC!!! i'll talk more in my next post which would prolly be in a few .... days? hahas. take care! byebye. (might update tml)

soh's birthday

HAPPY BIRHTDAY ELIZA and ETHEL!!

have a sweet 16th!!

ps: whats so special or significant about sweet 16?? i dont think it makes a difference.. especially for guys! hahas.

new year resolutions

hey guys. man. it might be a big late to do this now. but hey! better late than better. anyway.. my past week was great.. although i was at home for half of it i also met some friends for lunch etc etc.
set that aside .. i've finally decided to post some of my many new year resolutions;
1)control my raging tamper
2)as far as possible, do not judge people at all.
3)stop being materialistic--> be contented with what i have
4)have a strong relationship with God ALL YEAR ROUND!
5)be a gentleman in my actions and words (contract with ethel)
6)do my best in everything i do!
7)not to discriminate

and there are qutie a few others also.. but for now, these are the more important ones..
having said that.. i really havent been doing anything productive! like ive been watching chris farmer and jeff stockwell quite a bit on www.youtube.com. man.. one day i will be either jeff stockverywell or james farmer! =) [hopefully] that's about it! see you guys around!

ps: i also did not post this on 2nd jan. hehe

2005

hey there people! well. another year has gone past just like that. i can even remember the start of 2005. i was busy copying eevanns homework. and i realized hes not taking some subjects that i am. like D&T and history. so i couldnt copy everything! hahas.. anw.. 2005 has been a very impactful year of my life. 1st of all.. i didnt get into the tennis team this year.. but i dont deserve to. considering the fact that i always pon trng i dont really care now. =). apart from that.. i was separated from alot of my classmates in 2004. that was quite sad. but eventually i got used to it soon after sch reopened and made alot of new friends! i also got new teachers! the coolest thing about entering 2005 was that... I COULD FINALLY WEAR LONG PANTS. its such a joy for guys to reach sec3 man! however.. it only took most of us to realize long pants are really dreadful after the 1st week... they're so stiff the 1st few times you wear it and it splits super easily.. quite restrictive when palying soccer also.. and it gets spoilt easily. esp when you fall..

ANYWAY.. sec3 was also a year that really helped me think about my life and my faith in God. in the 1st few weeks of school.. quite a number of my friends were in gangs.. and a handful of them started smoking.. thankfully.. ive never liked the smell of smoke and i always hated smokers.. so i didnt join them in any of their activities. thats 1 thing i really must thank God for. i also tried to persuade some of my friends to stop.. however i wasnt very successful..

other than sch.. ive picked up a few important lessons form 2005. ive learnt that you should always be contented with what you have. and to always appreciate your family members.. you never know when they'll leave this earth.. AND ive also realized that my friends have really helped me alot in my 15 years of life.. without my friends this place would really be torturing for me. i really thank God for planning my life so wonderfully.

so.. thats about all that i wanna say about 2005.. there are alot more important things that need to be said. but for now. i'll leave you with this. no matter what is happening or has happened, God has already planned it. everything happens for a reason. if youre ever feeling depressed sad or lonely. talk to God. he will always listen to you and guide you. & with that, i hope 2005 rocked for you! =)

ps: i didnt post this on dec31. sorry guys hahas.